There's something to say about falling in love with someone again.

I'm not talking about falling in love with a different person after your last relationship went sour.

I'm not talking about remembering why you love someone, or making an effort to show that person how much you love them, although these are great things, too.

I'm talking about the first look, first kiss, first days of falling in love with someone. That kind of "walking on cloud 9" feeling you get.

And it came so unexpectedly.

Don't get me wrong. I've known that I love my fiancé Josh for a long time. We've known each other going on eight years now. We have a beautiful baby boy together. We've been through a lot, but I think that we've run into what most couples do - it never feels like it did when you first met.

We've had our tough times, facing obstacles that many couples our age never have to.

And by God's grace we've survived them all.

I have always known, even going through the hardest times, that I loved Josh, would always love Josh and I would spend my life with him. I had to wait, and pray, to get out of the dark times, though.

I now am standing in the sunshine.

As a Christian, I've been taught that love is not just a feeling, but also a choice that you make to live by. You choose to show love, as you choose to show respect. Once I fully understood that, I knew that I could make the decision to show love towards anyone, even someone I really didn't get a long with. I could be kind to them, because it was my choice to. I knew that if I applied this in my everyday acquaintances and my most intimate relationships, it would benefit both.

But in the process of learning to trust again, letting go of insignificant battles, showing respect and just plain relaxing, I find myself falling in love with Josh all over again, for who he is as a person. It's as if I'm seeing him in a whole new light. It's as if I'm seeing myself in a whole new light.

It's the smallest things that just weren't there before that elevate me to cloud 9. Josh reaching out to hold my hand in public, or wrapping his arm around me on the couch while we're watching a movie. Bringing me a drink when he gets himself one, calling me at work in the morning to wish me a good day or telling me I'm beautiful out of the blue. Watching him read the Bible to our son as he sits on his lap. I catch myself pausing often to breathe in the moment. Everyday is a pleasant surprise. And I think God for every moment of it.

The fact is that I never doubted Josh's love, even in the deep, dark pits of despair. But now I just feel lavished with love. It's as if we are sure of ourselves now, as individuals and as a couple. And it's ok to enjoy each other. The bottom cannot fall out when the foundation is made so strong.

I found myself telling a friend the other day that it's as if, after much prayer and waiting, my life has completely flipped from what it was a year ago. I heard the words come from my mouth before the full impact of their meaning actually hit me. "I can't imagine wanting anything else in life right now." When I realized what I said, I just had to smile.